nate told me tonight that he wants to go back to new york. he wants me to go up there with him. that kind of freaks me out, ive got to admit. he said hell wait till i get out of high school. honestly, i dont even know how much longer i can stand to be with him. sometimes i cant stand the thought of losing him, and others i cant stand to even look at him. i mean, im going to college. im not going to fuck that up because of a boy.